I tell myself she is learning. That she is in a foundational period of development. Learning possession is normal and even healthy.
// While Hazel is learning to share and socialize. I am also learning. Im learning how to parent her. Im learning which behaviours I need to correct, and learning how to correct them. My desire is to correct them with love and grace. I want her to learn the beauty of self-sacrifice. I want her to want to give and to share.
But if I'm being honest friends. Selfishness rears its head in my own life far too often. This is our nature. I find myself wanting my own time. Coveting naptime maybe just a little too much. Wanting my husbands undivided attention. Staying in my own comfortable bubble and not seeing the needs of those outside of my family.
// This is the joy and trial of motherhood. We must learn to deny our own self-seeking nature. We truly are not own own anymore. Perhaps more now than even in marriage. We give ourselves completely to these little beings daily; physically, emotionally and spiritually.
My desire is to raise Hazel | and all of our children | to know that giving really is better than receiving, that to deny yourself is our highest calling. But she will never deeply know this if I am not first modelling it in my own life. If she sees me choose sacrifice over self, community over cut off, time and again; she will know. She will learn to choose rightly, to love others.
// This will not come easily; it will not come lightly. I will fail as I walk this journey. Its a daily denial, a daily fire to walk through to becoming refined. Im thankful for grace. And im thankful for another day to begin again.
>> This is the first installment of "Thoughts on Raising Community Minded Children". I hope you'll come on back for part two, coming soon!
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